I want to put the past behind me so badly, just have what other people call 'normal'. Normal boring life. Mediocre. What people take for granted. I crave that.
It's draining having PTSD, like a part of my brain is underdeveloped. I feel Ashamed, trying to hide it because if anyone found out they'd run a mile..or so I think.
Like I'm part of a puzzle and I'm the only piece that doesn't fit.
I can't hold onto people for very long. Crap at relationships..I don't know if anyone can resonate with me on this. I'm just done with playing the victim. I am tired to shit of being this negative, horrible angry person. I can achieve so much if I only get my head out my arse and realise my true potential.
Anyway long story short I came across this website that has some really cool content about WHERE trauma comes from. Getting into the nitty gritty part of the brain.
If you feel like you don't understand why you act the way you do this will seriously help you. Give you insight.
You are absolutely not alone.
It's really interesting how trauma can change the way you perceive things that other people have no challenges with. For example: communicating effectively with others.
Sending love to you all. My chats are always open so catch me on insta or FB. Links below
Look after yourselves 🥰🥰
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